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A brief note before I follow up with ALL THE REASONS

Dear friends and followers,

It has been eleventy billion hours since I last posted (yes, that is to the exact minute) on the internets.  I’ve missed you.  I think it’s time for me to come back.  As per the usual…life has been busy….jobs…life…blah blah blah.  I’ll spare you all the excuses.  Because excuses are like A-holes….everybody has one….right?  See…didn’t you miss me?

I have still been keeping up with running and fitness and all that jazzy jazz…..which is why I know that coming back will only be a continuation but also include some new and exciting stuff for me and YOU!  Yay!

Lastly, before I get to all the real ISH…..If you didn’t miss me at all….no worries..because I don’t believe I am that important that it matters anyway 🙂  (awww, listen to me acting all martyr-ish)  For reals though.  I’m just happy people are out there that are even interested….truth be told, I know my dad and stepmom read it…so I got that goin for me 🙂


Sincerely yours,



AAAAAAAAAND NOW!  Back from the depths of the other side of the world but really the suburbs of Philadelphia….me 🙂


CATHARSIS:  The last year has been a roller coaster to say the least.  We can all agree that it happens in each one of our lives. 

I was holding on for dear life

Overall, things in general are good.  I have my health, my family, my friends.  All good things.  Several cathartic experiences helped my journey to this point but it was with one major swoop that I managed to find The Four Agreements and The Mastery of Love that helped me regain my semblance of self and worth.  If you have never heard of these books, I highly recommend them.  Don Miguel Ruiz – The Four Agreements and The Mastery of Love.  You will be doing yourself a favor

It is from these four ideals that we are able to release what we used to think about life and to move forward in order to be a better person.  Inevitably, we have to be the best we can be for ourselves first before we even attempt a relationship.  And I’ve tried to maintain some interesting relationships…friendship or otherwise….the biggest ideal: Don’t take anything personally – is SO EYE OPENING.  Do yourself a favor and check them out.

Because of the emotional catharsis, I’ve been able to improve in all aspects of my life.

My yoga is bendy-er….my cycling/spinning is funner (yes, I know I’m an english teacher and YES, I know that’s not a word….WHO CARES)….my running is safer, cleaner, and more fulfilling than ever before.  My mind finally gets it…and my body is following along.


HUBRIS:  Truth be told…a great deal of why I haven’t posted here in the last eleventy billion hours is tied to my hubris.  I am a work in progress…like everyone else.  I am unique…like everyone else (get it?) But for awhile, I was allowing my own stupid pride and fact that I have failed so often, get in the way of being real for myself and all of you.

The last series of posts I wrote on here dealt a lot with my Marathon Training for The Steamtown Marathon last October.  Truth:  I almost didn’t finish.  Had it not been for my amazing support from my dear DEAR friends Heather and Jen….and of course my father who finally picked up the phone when I called him at mile 14 hysterical…..I would have undoubtedly DNF and felt FUBAR’ed……

While I am not going to recap my experience or disappointment, I was emotionally broken down after that race.  I had no desire or love for running and because I used to find so much of my happiness in doing so, I felt lost….sad….concerned I might never recover.  It was weird…and I will get into that for another post with specifics to running…but for now…just know….I am not going to allow my stupid pride get in my way…..



AMALGAM – Me to a “T” these days.  I am all over the place but the thing I’m maintaining is my workout regiment.  Thank god for running, biking, yoga, and other extra curriculars….

INCREDULOUS – That 2014 is more than half over, that I am where I am today, that I have an INCREDIBLE support system in place, and mostly that things might not always be presented to me in the way I expect but they always have a tendency of working themselves out.


INTRANSIGENCE – Beyond everything else….I have persevered…and continue to work toward the many goals I have set for myself.  I’ve come to acknowledge and believe in the following(and if you know me, you know that it’s no surprise it’s an Emerson quote):

See you soon!


“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end….”

Without being too cliché……I feel that it is no coincidence that this song came on my pandora this morning on my way to work:



And yes, I am at school before 7am….usually I’m at school by 6:15 (at the latest)…..

With a few minor hiccups in the last couple of days, I am sad to report that today is my last day at the school I’ve been teaching at.  (Read:  I haven’t been fired, my job just ended…the teacher was out on maternity leave)

Today has been a roller coaster of emotions – thus far.  I am sad and nervous and happy and confused.  ALL THE EMOTIONS.  FEEL ALL THE FEELINGS!

At this moment, I am waiting for a few of my students to come back to school and play Just Dance with me.  Yup – you read that correctly.  Some of my students are coming in – on their day off – to play a video game with me.  It’ll be nice to end the day on a positive note.

Elsewhere – I am just trying to maintain some semblance of positivity.  I didn’t workout yesterday – a much needed rest day – but am back to running 6 or 7 miles this afternoon.  Spin class tomorrow and running again on Sunday.

Lots going on – lots to be hopeful for…..I am lucky.  Not a day goes by where I don’t acknowledge that.

Subject for discussion:  Working Out When You’re Tired

Question:  Yes or No?

Obviously there is some debate.  In my experience, I’ve found that I always feel better after a workout – even if I am tired.  But then there is the double edged sword – you could make yourself more tired and then not be able to do it the next.  OR there is always the possibility that you go to workout, even when you’re tired, and can’t work as hard as you’d like.


People who know me well know that I don’t take many days off – I do better at scheduling them in now than I used to but there is something about having done a workout that gives me a sense of accomplishment that I can’t get anywhere else.

Some days, I am just incredibly tired.

Some days, I start to feel tired as the day winds down.

Some days, I am anxious to get in my workout.

Lately, it’s been the second of the three.  Thankfully.

When it’s the first of these three, I typically will not exercise that day.  Usually this occurs at the end of the day.

When it’s the second of these three, I typically go to the gym and tell myself “if I still don’t want to do this after 2 miles, I will stop”…..I usually don’t stop.

If it’s the last of these three, I am usually running somewhere after school or doing a double workout.

Yesterday….it was a combination of #2 – which led to #3.

It was my last full day at school yesterday so I was a bit emotionally drained.  It’s tough to stay “up” for the kids when you know you’re going to miss them so much.  Needless to say, I had a spin class to teach last night and I knew I’d have an hour or so to kill beforehand.

I decided I’d run BEFORE spin class.  And I did.  It took me nearly 3.5 miles to find my stride but I did 5.5 easy (Sunday I did 6 at an 8 min pace – which is fast for me these days).  I then felt SO good that I cranked it up during Spin class and kicked my own butt.  It felt good to sweat as much as I did.

Say what you want about sweating (which I admit, I do quite a lot of….don’t judge)….but it’s good for you, it means you’re fit, it also means you’re healthy, and above all else – I know I’ve kicked ass when I sweat.

By the end of the night – I felt accomplished.  Tired, yes…..but a helluva lot better about myself and that I am going to definitely reach my goals sooner rather than later.

Questions for all of you:

Do you still workout when you are tired?

Do you sweat when you workout?  If now, how do you know you got a good workout?

What do you do if you don’t workout?

Whatever tears at us
Whatever holds us down
And if nothing can be done
We’ll make the best of what’s around

Turns out not where but who you’re with
That really matters
And hurts not much when you’re around
And if you hold on tight
To what you think is your thing
You may find you’re missing all the rest


The plan was to rest yesterday.

The plan was to run 20+ miles today.

The plan was to motivate myself to do it.

The plan was to be excited about the marathon by this point in training.

The plan was to get through it because the longer miles are necessary.

That was the plan…..

The truth is….I rested yesterday but I did some hiking – saw some amazing views at Hawk Mountain 

The truth is…..I went out on wave runners with my guy and had an amazing time meeting his family.  (that can make any girl nervous – even if you’ve known them your whole life!)

The truth is….I didn’t want to run today.

The truth is…I admitted this to my guy and explained how difficult it can be in the middle of marathon training.

The truth is…burnout during training DOES happen.  Please tell me I am not the ONLY person who experiences this?!

The truth is….I went to bed early-ish for a Saturday night and woke up early with the mental attitude that I was going to do this!

And that’s when the REAL TRUTH hit me…..when I went to put on my sneakers…after I was dressed….and mentally prepped….

I left my sneakers at the lake house.

Understand that old way I used to deal with this kind of stuff was a complete melt down.  And when I say melt down…I really do mean it…..there would be tears…anxiety…probably a panic attack….anger….and most likely a phone call to my dad.

Didn’t get a phone call this morning, did ya Dad? 😉

Truth is…..the universe listened to me.

Truth is….the universe is telling me it’s okay to not want to run some times.

Truth is….I had to make the best of what’s around….

Instead, I am going to go to a spin class (or two) this morning….and I will start over on my running plan this week.

with your long face pulling down?
Don’t hide away, like an ocean
But you can’t see, but you can smell
And the sound waves crash down

I was bummed out last week….but not for the reasons you might think.  I hid away last week…I pulled away…I retreated like the tide ebbs.  Lame on my part….I know…but some times when you’re faced with an issue you’re not sure of what to do, you have to just keep to yourself and reevaluate the topic at hand.  And then I was like…..what am I doing?  This is MY LIFE….why should I let someone else judge me….?


Truthfully – my life is kicking butt lately.  I only have good things to report. 🙂

First and foremost – I finally got a job!  It’s a 12 week Extended Time Substitute job so it’s not all year but it’s something and I have this feeling the rest of things are going to fall into place with it.  Basically another school district is looking at me too, so here’s hoping that falls in line right after this first one ends.

Secondly – I am officially off the market.  That’s all I’m going to say about that except that he is amazing and wonderful and makes me happy and it is unlike any other relationship I’ve been a part of.  The communication between us in incredible and alone makes me want to be a better person on a daily basis.

Thirdly – I am house sitting for two weeks.  To give you an idea as to what kind of obstacles I am facing…..


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It’s a rough life, I tell ya.  A pool, hot tub and two bbq’s?  What’s a girl to do??? 😉

The only rough part is that I do start school on Monday (a week earlier than everyone else) but that’s okay – it’s only for a short time that my commute will be about 50 minutes each morning.  I don’t even care!  I am SO PUMPED!

Amidst all of this – yes, I am still running.  I logged 37 miles last week.  I didn’t get a long run in on Sunday – probably because I was exhausted from teaching back to back spin classes on Saturday morning.  So far this week I’ve only logged 12 miles.  Today I plan to do some speed work – here’s hoping that works out!

The rest of the week is devoted to getting things ready for school next week (outside of running!).

How’s everyone else been?

We made it!  Another week down!  Eleventy-billion to go!  (anyone else notice that’s my favorite fake number? k, just checking)

But really people – I know all of you are so excited about the subject of this post….the websites I visit most often.  No?  I bet you’d be surprised!  Keep reading if you care…and keep reading if you don’t! kthx

Before I get to that….today’s agenda is set for a light 4 mile run and then teach a kickbutt Spin class.  The rest of the day will be spent doing….things I will not tell you about but let’s just say it’ll be fun and something I’ve been looking forward to all week!  I also have a jam packed Saturday consisting of Swim lessons, some ventures out in the evening….and a long run with my friend Mindy on Sunday morning.  Woot!

Eh em…..(also this is all meant to be read with drips of sarcasm – sort of…..if you don’t read it that way, it’s not my problem)

1.  FACEBOOK – Like, duh.  I can not tell you how many times I check my facebook on a daily basis because, well, let’s be real – 1.  How many people ACTUALLY count the times they go on facebook in a day? (don’t answer that – ESPECIALLY if it’s less than 2 – go away – stop judging me)  2.  It’s the greatest way to stalk someone without it being creepy (don’t act like you don’t do it too!)  and 3.  How else will I be able to check and see if 720 of my 725 friends that I don’t talk to are still living?  EXACTLY. I knew you’d get it.

Facebook is – well – an addiction.  Don’t even act like Myspace was better.  The only thing myspace had over facebook is the ability to post music to your page and lesbihonest (pitch perfect, anyone?)…you turned that ish down as soon as you went on to someone’s page because you were all like, “EWWWW, what is this SONG?!  The truth hurts sometimes.

I’ve had friends give facebook up for Lent and/or an undisclosed amount of time…..why?  WHY?  Isn’t the reason for giving something up, TO GIVE SOMETHING UP?!  DELETE IT – don’t just go away for a little – that’s kind of not the point.  And besides, then you have to spend twice as long trying to catch up on what happened when you were “away”.  Trust me.  Save yourself some time.

I do have a few friends that don’t have a facebook.  It’s true.  I know, I can’t believe it either.  Why am I still friends with these people?  Truth is, they need ME….I’m their ‘dealer’.  I get them the info they need when they can’t get it themselves….you know what I mean, jellybean??

2.  Weather Channel Dot Com – is the bomb…..aaaaaand I’m done rhyming.  For many reasons – mostly because I want to know whether it’s an outside running day but also because….think about this for a second…..when you have a conversation with someone – doesn’t it ALMOST ALWAYS go back to the weather at some point?

People eat that ish up!  People LOVE to talk about the weather.  Don’t believe me?  Think about it….

When a conversation is going south…..”did you see the weather for tomorrow?”

When you don’t know what to say on a date…..”hey I heard it’s supposed to be nice tomorrow”

When you don’t know HOW to start a conversation….”doesn’t this rain suck?  Do you know when it’s supposed to clear up?”

When you’re saying goodbye to someone and don’t know how else to say goodbye…”I hope this heat wave ends….stay cool!”

(so take a minute….think about it….YOU KNOW YOU DO THIS!!!!)

3. – because, as I’ve proclaimed before – I am a nerd.  I am proud of it…and I like to be smart and know random stuff when I am entertaining at parties.  HA!

Ironically, this was slashdot’s poll of the day yesterday:

Screen shot 2013-08-01 at 6.13.59 PMDon’t want to click on it?  It asked how long do you think facebook will be around for???  Yeah.  OKAY PEOPLE WHO SAID: “Who uses facebook?”  YOU’RE ALL LIARS.  There, I said it.  You are!

I owe the finding of slashdot to my friend Joey – you can visit his wedding website and wish him and his fiance Jen a very happy future!  They get married in November!  Can’t wait for that!!!

Back from my tangent….anyway, Joey told me about slashdot nearly 6 years ago…and I’ve been keeping tabs on it ever since.  It’s not flashy.  It’s not spectacular..but it’s informative and good to read.  It’s news for nerds.  Stuff that matters.  Boom.

Screen shot 2013-08-01 at 6.19.38 PM4.  How do I put this gently? –  Just a semi-functioning individual navigating higher education with a cocktail in her hand and a tendency to embarrass herself.  Basically, I’m in Graduate School and (still) slowly losing my mind.    It speaks for itself, people.  Check it out.

This site is freakin’ hilarious.  Yes.  It’s a tumblr site.  It’s typically updated every day.  The girl who runs this has some pretty funny ideas.  If you need a good laugh…..go there.  Now.  Do not pass go.  Do not collect $200.  GO.  NOW.

It’s pretty self explanatory but basically I can not read this site while drinking any kind of liquid else it will end up all over my computer….

5.  Astrology Zone –

I KNOW, I KNOW.  Judge me.  Go ahead.  I don’t care.  I read my horoscope every day and every month.  Is it always right?  NO.  Do I like it?  Yes.

What I think I like this most is the “idea” that there is SOME kind of control over the days to come – even though in reality we all know there is no real control over anything.  It’s relaxing for me.  I think what I really like to do the most is read it and then as the month nears it’s end, read it again to see if any of it was true.

What’s that you say?  I’m crazy?

Listen, honey – I’ve been called worse.

I just like it – and it’s okay if you don’t but I’m being truthful here – so, there’s that 🙂

What sign am I?  Cancer.

What sign are you? :-p

And so there you have it – the five websites I look at the most.  Good, bad and embarrassing.  Take it or leave it!

What websites you do you read daily? 

What sites are you embarrassed to tell people you read? 

Don’t act like you don’t have any……

Have a great weekend!

Seriously?!  What happened to July?!  August is THIS WEEK!  Cray.

I have to say, as far as months go, July has been the best (so far) in 2013.  I think, based on recent events, that there are only more good and amazing things coming.

That being said….this week is no exception!  Tonight I am heading out to the Trenton area to visit an old but still GREAT friend that I met more than 10 years ago.  WOW!  He’s in town for work for a week and I missed visiting him last year so I am making the effort to head out there tonight and hang out.  Plans are still up in the air as to what we’re going to do but whatever it is – it’ll be fun.  Some crazy stories with him!

The last time I saw him was at a Homecoming for CMU in 2006? I believe…..

Tamara and PK's Wedding in 2004

Tamara and PK’s Wedding in 2004

Dan (on the left) and PK (on the right) - BEER OLYMPICS

Dan (on the left) and PK (on the right) – BEER OLYMPICS

Needless to say, there is some hilarity expected tonight 🙂

Wednesday and Thursday I am heading down to the Jersey Shore to hang with my friends Jen, Kelley, Erin and Dan (and their daughter Pippa! – who is the cutest kid I think I have ever seen) – on Malone Family Vacation.  I am so excited!  From the looks of their posts on FB, things are already awesome!  Duh….  🙂

Plans for the weekend are expected to be even more fun!

In the mean time…YES, I plan to stick to my training.

I ran 10 miles yesterday.  Nothing special – but wanted to just get them in.  Today, I am hoping to get as close to 10 miles as I can.  Normally I take Monday’s off but because I am going to the Shore on Wednesday and Thursday, I am thinking Thursday might be a day off for me.

So I am kind of changing the organization but I figure as long as I’m getting the miles in, that should be good?  I’ll still do speed work this week and get one long run in – I need to get close to 20 for my next long run.  With August rapidly approaching, my time to train is lessening by the minute!  (or literally, by the day)

I am starting to feel better about where I’m at with my training – I think I just kind of hit a slump with the plan but with the support of my friend Mindy, I am back in the game!

Also, new playlist from Saturday – it was a kickass spin class – I’ll even tell you what we did for the songs this time (Levels are based on 1-10 scale):

  1. I Gotta Feeling        4:49    Black Eyed Peas    – Warm Up – 90-100RPM’s, adding resistance to get HR up
  2. I Don’t Care        3:39    Fall Out Boy  – Level 6 add to Level 7 – Intermittent Runs in 3rd – 80 to 90RPMs
  3. Bleeding Out        3:43    Imagine Dragons – Level 7 to 7.5 – Climb w/ Runs on a Hill – 70 to 80 RPMS
  4. Know Your Enemy        3:11    Green Day – Level 8 –  Fast Climb in 3rd w/ Accelerations – 70 to 80 RPMS
  5.  Are You Gonna Be My Girl        3:34    Jet – Level 6 – Flat Road/Plateau – 100 to 105 RPMS
  6. Takin’ Care of Business        4:51    Bachman-Turner Overdrive – Level 6.5 to Level 7.5 – Seated/Heavy Wind – RPMS 80-90 w/ accelerations to 100RPM
  7. My Hero        4:20    Foo Fighters – Level 8 to 8.5 – Seated Hill w/ Runs in 3rd – RPMS 70
  8. Stellar        3:22    Incubus – Levels 9 to 6 and repeat – ROLLING HILLS
  9. Satellite        3:59    Rise Against – Level 6.5 to 7 – Intermittent Runs in 3rd – 90 RPMS
  10. Any Way You Want It        3:22    Journey – Level 6 – Seated Flat w/ Sprints – RPMS 100 to 110
  11. Bond On Bond [Hectic Mix]        2:38    Bond – False Flat – RPMS 100
  12. Radioactive        3:08    Imagine Dragons – Level 7 to 8 – Seated Climb – RPMS 70
  13. Eminem – Lose Yourself (Official Music Video).mp4        5:17 – Level 8 to 9 – Standing Climb – RPMS 60
  14. Foo Fighters – The Pretender.mp4        4:30   – Level 6.5 – Intermittent Runs (2 seated – 1 in 3rd Standing)
  15. Hurt        3:39    Johnny Cash – Cool Down
  16. Tomorrow Is Gonna Be Better        2:50    Joshua Radin  – Cool Down

It’s about 56 Minutes – give or take.  I rode about 23 miles in that time (yes, even with the hills).  Enjoy!

Can anyone else believe we are about to enter the 8th month of 2013?!