A brief note before I follow up with ALL THE REASONS
Dear friends and followers,
It has been eleventy billion hours since I last posted (yes, that is to the exact minute) on the internets. I’ve missed you. I think it’s time for me to come back. As per the usual…life has been busy….jobs…life…blah blah blah. I’ll spare you all the excuses. Because excuses are like A-holes….everybody has one….right? See…didn’t you miss me?
I have still been keeping up with running and fitness and all that jazzy jazz…..which is why I know that coming back will only be a continuation but also include some new and exciting stuff for me and YOU! Yay!
Lastly, before I get to all the real ISH…..If you didn’t miss me at all….no worries..because I don’t believe I am that important that it matters anyway 🙂 (awww, listen to me acting all martyr-ish) For reals though. I’m just happy people are out there that are even interested….truth be told, I know my dad and stepmom read it…so I got that goin for me 🙂
AAAAAAAAAnd Scene.
Sincerely yours,
k8efitz
AAAAAAAAAND NOW! Back from the depths of the other side of the world but really the suburbs of Philadelphia….me 🙂
CATHARSIS: The last year has been a roller coaster to say the least. We can all agree that it happens in each one of our lives.
I was holding on for dear life
Overall, things in general are good. I have my health, my family, my friends. All good things. Several cathartic experiences helped my journey to this point but it was with one major swoop that I managed to find The Four Agreements and The Mastery of Love that helped me regain my semblance of self and worth. If you have never heard of these books, I highly recommend them. Don Miguel Ruiz – The Four Agreements and The Mastery of Love. You will be doing yourself a favor
It is from these four ideals that we are able to release what we used to think about life and to move forward in order to be a better person. Inevitably, we have to be the best we can be for ourselves first before we even attempt a relationship. And I’ve tried to maintain some interesting relationships…friendship or otherwise….the biggest ideal: Don’t take anything personally – is SO EYE OPENING. Do yourself a favor and check them out.
Because of the emotional catharsis, I’ve been able to improve in all aspects of my life.
My yoga is bendy-er….my cycling/spinning is funner (yes, I know I’m an english teacher and YES, I know that’s not a word….WHO CARES)….my running is safer, cleaner, and more fulfilling than ever before. My mind finally gets it…and my body is following along.
HUBRIS: Truth be told…a great deal of why I haven’t posted here in the last eleventy billion hours is tied to my hubris. I am a work in progress…like everyone else. I am unique…like everyone else (get it?) But for awhile, I was allowing my own stupid pride and fact that I have failed so often, get in the way of being real for myself and all of you.
The last series of posts I wrote on here dealt a lot with my Marathon Training for The Steamtown Marathon last October. Truth: I almost didn’t finish. Had it not been for my amazing support from my dear DEAR friends Heather and Jen….and of course my father who finally picked up the phone when I called him at mile 14 hysterical…..I would have undoubtedly DNF and felt FUBAR’ed……
While I am not going to recap my experience or disappointment, I was emotionally broken down after that race. I had no desire or love for running and because I used to find so much of my happiness in doing so, I felt lost….sad….concerned I might never recover. It was weird…and I will get into that for another post with specifics to running…but for now…just know….I am not going to allow my stupid pride get in my way…..
OTHER $10 WORDS:
AMALGAM – Me to a “T” these days. I am all over the place but the thing I’m maintaining is my workout regiment. Thank god for running, biking, yoga, and other extra curriculars….
INCREDULOUS – That 2014 is more than half over, that I am where I am today, that I have an INCREDIBLE support system in place, and mostly that things might not always be presented to me in the way I expect but they always have a tendency of working themselves out.
finally,
INTRANSIGENCE – Beyond everything else….I have persevered…and continue to work toward the many goals I have set for myself. I’ve come to acknowledge and believe in the following(and if you know me, you know that it’s no surprise it’s an Emerson quote):
See you soon!
